Hhhhhhh it's sure've been some time. And of course it's vent. I need to learn how to shut the fuck up
This year just keep giving me kicks after kicks. First Dar, then multiple months of mom being in oncology limbo, all this accompanied with creative block the size I've never had before, and now look at this- I killed a friendship of 5 years, which final notes made me doubt that I'm a person worthy of love! And of course, right after that I got to be hospitalized for an emergency surgery. Which would be fine in general I guess, but the timing is mean af. Thank for nothing, stupid meat prison. At least physical pain is destructive.
Sure could use some kind of uplifting W right now, but ha. Haha.
At least I've been hit with a new wave of "grief frenzy", so I hope I can finish some stuff when I'm back from hospital...