How I was in apathy for the last few weeks and started to regain my strength and motivation
Hi, this is SPCell. I haven't written a post for a long time and here's why: I was under a lot of stress in June-July due to problems with work, the blog is important to me as a hobby and a potential alternative source of income, but torn between everything at once emotionally burned out and sank into apathy.
First, in June, due to problems with mobile Internet, I could no longer work as a courier and had to quickly look for a new job. Then training and adaptation at a new job in a field where I had not yet worked and a large amount of new information was a heavy burden on my brain. Then in July I received an incomplete salary and until August 8 I had to borrow money from relatives just to survive a month until my full salary, which was also very stressful for me, especially when I often did not have enough for basic needs such as bus fare and water while working in the fields in the heat (in sales, this is a term meaning the tour of the territory with business facilities for the purpose of direct sales). The next point is pressure from the management due to the department's failure to fulfill the plan, although I fulfilled my personal plan and even exceeded it. They threatened us with sanctions from our boss's management, forced us to work overtime on Saturdays and call my clients earlier than I planned, which is why one of them snapped at me because our company was annoying him with calls, and I, having accumulated stress, snapped in response, for which I was reprimanded by the boss.
Of course, this overloaded me and I had no strength or motivation to work on the blog. At first, I tried to find motivation through self-development books (yoga, time management) and podcasts with reviews of them. I listened to podcasts on one Russian Telegram channel. For more than a week, when I came home, I just laid on a bed and listened to podcasts, I didn't even turn on my computer for several days, but eventually I got tired of it too. I came to the idea that I needed to play something, tried to do so, but the desire quickly disappeared.
As a result, I took up meditation called yoga nidra. The essence is as follows: you need to completely relax the muscles of the body and simply observe the flow of thoughts from your subconscious. At first, I understood my motivation for continuing to work: it is unknown what will happen next at work and in life, so you need to monetize the blog in order to have additional income, especially when it comes from doing something you like.
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