I am sorry
I failed you guys. I'll stop subscription for now and will make every art here open. I will post those pictures i started and will post several more here when they are ready. Also when I'll get access to discord again I'll start new poll for a month I skipped to make out for silence and your donations.
War divided me and good medicine apart and just before it i actually felt like I had it again, will to live I even applied for regular low paying job just to work as I would never done before bc of my depression and past experiences with previous jobs. However in February all my effort in fighting my mental illness went down the drain along with Ixel the only antidepressant that worked for me, velaxin that I taking now do jack shit for me, I feel as worse as before going to psychiatrist. None of it excuse me and I still should have informed you and cancelled subscription yet I didn't and failed you. I'm trying to draw but it's just not working most of the time, still when I'm able to draw I'll draw what you guys deserve.
As a side note I switched to pen and paper lately, it makes me feel like I do something solid, something you can touch instead of a picture on the monitor. Kinda fooling myself to feeling somewhat positive. I have a picture I'll post soon here done on paper, I hope you'll enjoy it. I will draw on PC don't worry.
