April update [ENG]

Hi kitties! I want to thank you for your support, as always. It really means a lot to me, maybe even more than before. I’m not good with words when it comes to expressing gratitude, so I probably should just shut up and update my Boosty already *wink*  I took extra commissions to cover medical expenses because of my health issues (which feels like mental issues), which means that upcoming Boosty content is mostly about commissions. I always felt like I should solve every task separately, and it was definitely self-destructive. Technical moments of drawing means almost nothing when you can’t control yourself. Drawing issues have almost nothing common with drawing. Trying to keep calm, observe and not rush is the best thing I can do now. Solving some moments about a certain commission helps me to solve other moments for other commissions, both old ones and new ones, to my surprise. And I like it. 

It's a harsh period, and the feeling of being isolated (especially online) can make everything even more unbearable. Perhaps, I was the one who isolated myself and wasn’t able to break it. Now I've realized HOW MUCH the ability just to talk with old friends means to me. The power of common communication is underestimated. I still think that the Sailor Moon Sailor Stars season’s moral is “don’t fucking try to be a hero and bear everything alone, ask for help”. 

Virtual hugs have been sent!

Some watercolour and ballpoint pen doodles from 2021. Done on an "egg shell" textured paper I hated all my life. Now I can bear with it, to my surprise.