Love and Pain - Two extremes of one line
Снова вслепую доверюсь, и буду контужена.
Снова отнимут лишь тех, кто особенно нужен нам.
Мир не по правилам против меня или это заслуженно?
Море штормит, и я на глубину ухожу за жемчужиной...
Today I am remembering these lines from a song by my favorite Russian rap band "ГРОТ". The translation goes like this:
"I will blindly trust again, and I'll be shell-shocked.
Again, only those will be taken away who we need the most.
Is the world unfair to me or do I deserve it?
There's a storm at sea, and I go to the depths to find a pearl..."
If you really try to 'feel' these lines, what kind of feeling will you get from them? Sadness? Frustration? Disappointment? Feeling of injustice? Maybe, sorrow? The common denominator for all these feelings is Pain.
In the context of recent tragic events in Moscow, I've been thinking a lot about human pain and its role in our lives. Naturally people perceive pain as something negative, whether it's physical or emotional pain. Something that nobody ever wants to experience. But if you think about it, pain is a great mechanism that shows us that something is wrong with our body or psyche/soul, and we need to work on that.
In case of emotional pain, a loss of a loved one is definitely a common source of it. No matter how strong we are or may seem to the outside world, we still hurt inside when we lose someone we love. It's not always death that takes away our loved ones. It could be a breakup, which is often very much like death. The death of a relationship or friendship. The end of a connection.
From my experience in dealing with emotional pain, I have learned a very important lesson. Pain is a type of energy, and this energy is the energy of Love. Even though it may not seem like that when we have just fallen in pain, if we are honest with ourselves and we don't hide it, eventually it will give us as much energy and strength as falling in love. If you have gone through all 5 stages of acceptance, you should try to start thanking God / the Universe for this pain that He brought into your life because it is really a gift that shows you what your heart is capable of. It shows you all the Love that you are capable of emanating and sharing with the rest of the world.
I don't remember who said these words, but they have become one of my life guidelines. "Pain is inevitable, but suffering is a choice." Everyone makes this choice every day. As for me, the minute I started treating my pain as God's blessing and thanking Him for it, I felt like I obtained enormous power.
Tapping into the power of pain is a long journey. It is a lesson. Or multiple lessons. And only God knows what these lessons will be. There is only one thing that I know for sure: God will never give you more pain that you can bear.
The song mentioned above (acoustic version):
